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February 2011
Last year I started keeping track of the "reported" cases of animal abuse in Tennessee. I emphasize the word ?reported? because many cases of abuse are not reported. Studies has long shown the correlation between animal abuse, criminal behavior, and violence towards humans. I had hoped by exposing the abuse people would seek solutions to the problem, contact their representatives, and lobby for change. Of course, that didn?t happen and it appears that this year will be a repeat of last year, if not worse. Several animal cruelty/abuse situations have already been reported in 2011.
January 2011
Pet ResQ 911 received this story back in January. Enjoy!
I have been wanting to write this for some time, but have not been able
to get the words right. Maybe I thought if I kept putting it off, it
would magically write itself.
I was one of those people who never really thought much about
pitbulls. It's not that I disliked them, I just never considered them
and I am ashamed to say that. I come from Laguna Beach, Ca where people
bring their dogs into stores, sit with them at outdoor cafes and where
there is a fancy dog boutique on every block. I have always loved
animals, took in everything that came along when I was a kid. To this
day I carry cat and dog food in my car and can build a dog house in
record time. No animal has ever been unworthy of my time. I never saw
pitbulls, didn't know anyone who had them. They were....not my problem.
When I moved to Alabama, everything changed. I would see dead dogs and
cats by the road. Afraid, lost, unwanted and starving animals
everywhere just trying to survive. It did and still does break my
heart. Horses shot for no reason, dogs skinned and left in agony.
However, it was the day to day attitude....the disregard for their well
being, their safety, their quality of life that haunted me. I was so
shocked and I hurt for all these lost and lonely souls. I will leave
food, I will help spay and neuter, but what can I do, what good is the
little I can offer when I can't make a dent? People would tell me to
forget it, "you're just making yourself sad, who cares." "Animals can
take care of themselves, they like being free." I would scan the
roadside for my strays, do my small part, feel bad when days or weeks
went by when I didn't see a dog who always waited for me in the same
spot. But I was doing my part, right?
Fast forward a few months and I started volunteering at a kennel.
One day we got a call about a pitbull who had been found by the side of
the road and was in very bad shape. The Vet believed he had been a bait
dog and was so badly beaten, one side of his skull was sunk in and that
might mean brain damage. The Vet also said he had begun to show
aggression and people were afraid of him so he needed to be put down or
moved. The rescue wanted to know if we could take him and we did.
I happened to be sitting in the lobby when Sawyer arrived and I had
never seen anything so "forlorn." I didn't even know what a bait dog
was before that day, but there he was, all 31 pounds of him. Bones
breaking out through the skin, head down, ears flat, tail so tucked we
didn't even realize he had one at first. He walked over to me, put his
bony, misshapen head in my lap and began this slow, long wail. I had
never heard anything like it and I honestly thought my heart would
split in two.
In that instant something happened, some crazy, unbreakable bond
was made. I never in my life expected to fall in love with a pitbull,
but I did. Maybe it's because I didn't see a breed, I saw another
living creature who had probably never known a moment that was not full
of pain. He became mine, I became his.....I'm not sure, but there it
was. I was new to all this and naive in thinking that the wounds to his
inside could be healed the way the ones to his outside were. That the
scars I could not see, were the deepest, the ones that had caused him
the most suffering. Those wounds would not close easily.
We had our battles, Sawyer and I. Sometimes he won and sometimes I
won, but neither of us gave up trying to find a way out of his past. I
could see how badly he wanted to join in, to trust, to believe. I guess
having never known love, he could only take a little bit at a time.
There were some scary moments and almost everyone said, "put him
down, he's ruined." "He's only a dog and only a pitbull at that, those
kinds of dogs are just meant to be mean." "Get ride of him before he
hurts you, pitbulls can't be loving, they simply are not family dogs."
But there was a light in this dog I could not ignore.
I spent hundreds and hundreds of dollars, we saw specialists and
trainers....it was always two steps forward and five steps back. But
Sawyer could only go at his own pace, he could only accept and trust so
much at a time. My telling him it was all going to be ok, was not
enough....I had to show him over and over and over again. It was more
than a year before he would let me rub his belly without his eyes
flying wide open and panic spreading all through him.
A year before a little tap on the rear was a sign of affection and
not the start of a beating. He does have a tail, by the way and these
days it never stops. He loves petsmart, loves kids....the harder they
laugh, the harder he tries to make them laugh that much more. I see the
look of horror at first because their parents think my pitbull is
destined to eat their children before their very eyes. He licks faces
and fingers, follows the little voices carried on little feet and he is
happy.
Older people always ask to pet him, this now 65 pound pit sitting
calmly while an old withered hand bangs him on the head....lol. I never
know who will attract his attention first, or why he is drawn to
someone, but it's beautiful to watch. He has a sense and I have learned
he sees things I do not. I don't mind though, I'm just glad he saw
something in me that day. That one day back in June that started so
simply, but changed everything. In the year and a half since then, I
don't know who changed whom the most. I do know that one broken and
battered pitbull taught me more than anything else ever has about love
and trust, about second chances and redemption. About forgiveness and
hope. And something else that I can't explain.....it's probably that
feeling I can't explain that made me put this off for so long, but I
don't need to explain that feeling to you, to others like you because
you already understand, you already know.
I am happy to be one of you now, having seen that full pitbull body
wag and knowing with absolute certainty that I will never, ever stop
doing everything I can to end the wrong done to these dogs. So, I guess
this was a VERY long way to say thank you....thank you from the bottom
of my heart for doing your part and mine. For keeping it going until
people like me could catch up. For getting it faster than the rest of
us and for going on when you thought you couldn't because these noble
dogs have so much to give and deserve better than they have been given.
I understand now and I'm hapy to have pittie fever which I am told
lasts forever....lol
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